Disappointments and Decisions

This week has been full of disappointments and decisions.
The disappointments started with bad news from my former employer- they have no money to offer me another contract. They continued with a cancelled camping trip- because unlike me my friends have lives. And finally the disappointments culminated with the sad end to the Vancouver Canucks Stanley Cup hopes. Alas it has been a disappointing week.

With the disappointments come necessary decisions, where to go and what to do with my life being top priorities. How long should I stay in the Sault? Do I stay until I find a job elsewhere? Do I move home and volunteer until I find something or get accepted to grad school? How long do I sit around where I am waiting to hear about the jobs I applied for?

I am getting fed up with having my life on hold here waiting for jobs and living off unemployment. I feel like I need a change so I had almost decided to move home at the end of the month. However I apart from the disappointments I have had a relatively good week and hung out several times with some good friends. Also my family isn't available to help me move at the end of the month and likely won't be until the middle of July. 
And moving back home, although it offers the benefit of rent free accommodation, is not the ideal situation either because I don't have a job there either and my friends live further away. I feel like I either need to get a job here or pick up and move somewhere else where there is a job for me.

Staying here feels like being stuck in a rut but moving back home feels like crawling into a hole. so I don't really want to have to choose either. All I know for sure is that the weather is lovely and I really want to be outside exploring. I feel like the field season is slipping through my fingers and I am powerless to stop it. I know for sure I don't want to spend the entire summer looking for a job- I want to get out and DO SOMETHING.

So if anyone needs a scientist interested in aquatic ecosystems to look at some bugs, or do some water testing or something. Give me a holler because I want to work!